forevermeranti:differing dissidents

The Carpenters - Solitaire

2012-02-17T09:05:00.001+08:00

There was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love through his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unchecked
Until it died in his silence

And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire

Another day, a lonely day
So much to say that goes unspoken
And through the night, his sleepless nights
His eyes are closed, his heart is broken

And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself it's easy to pretend
She's coming back again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire

A little hope, goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without saying
Solitaire
And by himself it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
Ohhh

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire
Solitaire, solitaire

___

Lyrics taken from: http://www.lyrics007.com/Carpenters%20Lyrics/Solitaire%20Lyrics.html

A hundred letters

2012-02-09T11:18:00.002+08:00

Excerpts of a wonderful text.

To say simply, for instance, that Sufism is the pursuit of the inward path toward God implies that God is a clear destination. Since when one travels somewhere one is leaving one place behind and heading for a different and distinct location, the suggestion is that Sufism entails leaving one self behind in the quest for a "true" self. The worldly experience must be shed, from this point of view, for the sake of a complete immersion in divine being. Such an understanding of Sufism would, however, ultimately both distort and fall short of capturing Sufism’s complexity and essence.

Bruce Lawrence, in his foreward to The Hundred Letters, identifies the text’s articulation of the tensions at the heart of Sufism to be its most profound strengths. Lawrence describes the text’s "artful balance—between reflection and conduct, between explanation and advocacy, between attachment to the Law and pursuit of the Way, between sobriety and ecstasy, bondage and freedom, death and life."

"Sufism permits no stasis. Remember that water left to stand becomes stagnant!"

"There is pleasure in separation from You, and tyranny in Your presence:
That pleasure is better, for we have no strength to bear Your tyranny!
…
If You welcome me, then I am Your accepted one:
If You do not, I am still Your rejected servant!
I should not be worried whether You accept or reject me:

My task, in either state, is to remain preoccupied with You!"

Link: http://www.rsiss.net/paulistpress/maneri.html

Timeless Vanities

2011-12-27T11:11:00.002+08:00

The creation of words, is easy.

To emulate them, exactly,

Is not so much.

To hold dear to your conscience,

Are you willing to?

To be prepared to face everything,

By doing nothing.

That is how it is,

To depend merely on logic,

To climb a cliff of pure glass.

(Rose taken from: http://beeillustrated.wordpress.com/2011/11/25/the-black-rose/ via Google Image)

Stay. ;(

2011-11-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

I need some time just deliver the things that I need for now
Everything that I feel's like a warm deep calm casting over me
And it's taking me to somewhere new

If you believe that everything's alright
You won't be all alone tonight
And I'd be blessed by the light of your company,
Slowly lifting me to somewhere new

Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, you said
"Please understand if I see you again don't even say hello."

Please

What a night it is, when you live like this
And you're coming up beneath the clouds,
Don't let me down
All the love's still there I just don't know what to do with it now
You know, I still can't believe we both did some things
I don't even wanna think about
Just say you love me and I'll say "I'm sorry,
I don't want anybody else to feel this way"
No, no, no

Oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, I said
"Please understand I've been drinking again, and all I do is hope"

Please... stay
Please stay

I'll admit I was wrong about everything
Cause I'm high and I don't wanna come down
All the fun that we had on your mothers couch,
I don't even wanna think about

I'm not strong enough for the both of us
What was I supposed to do
You know I love you
Whoa-oh

Please just stay
Stay

_____

I love you. Please stay.

Bruised and scarred

2011-11-03T00:18:00.002+08:00

It all goes back to the first kiss
It was the one I thought I'd never miss
Maybe we were one of the lucky ones
Maybe I'm just not quite strong enough

This was supposed to be the easy part
But breaking down is what I found hard
Now I'm wearing this smile that I don't believe in
Inside I feel like screaming

She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one
But my doubts somehow they sold me out

I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away

I'm finding out in the hardest way
The consequence of every mistake I've ever made
Baby what's it like to be alone?
(Baby, what's it like to be alone)
I don't want to know, I don't want to know

She gave me every reason to believe I'd found the one
But my doubts somehow they sold me out

I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away

So baby be honest
Is this what you wanted?
We lost what we started
And found out much more than we want to know
(More than we want to know)
About how we're letting go
(About how we're letting go)

So baby be honest
Is this what you wanted?
We lost what we started
And found out much more than we want to know

I'm bruised and scarred
Save me from this broken heart
All my love will slowly fade and fall apart
Someone please sing this lovesick melody
Call my name if you're afraid
I'm just a kiss away

____

A letter is all I deserve now. I realize that. And I'm sorry.

But sorry is never enough.

2011-10-14T14:47:00.002+08:00

The same stream of life that runs through my veins night and day
runs through the world and dances in rhythmic measures.

It is the same life that shoots in joy through the dust of the earth
in numberless blades of grass
and breaks into tumultuous waves of leaves and flowers.

It is the same life that is rocked in the ocean-cradle of birth
and of death, in ebb and in flow.

I feel my limbs are made glorious by the touch of this world of life.
And my pride is from the life-throb of ages dancing in my blood this moment.

-Gary Schyman - Life

You and I were friends from outer space

2011-08-20T11:02:00.000+08:00

You and I were friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only 2 who understood this place
And s far as we know
We were way before our time

As bold as we were blind
Just another perfect mistake
Another bridge to take
On the way of letting go,
This ain't goodbye

It is just the way love goes
But where's that woman now, to keep away the cold
This ain togood bye
It's Not where our story ends

But I know you can't be mine, not the way you always been
As long as we've got time
Then this ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye

We were stars up in the sunlit sky
No one else could see
Neither of else ever thought to ask why
It wasn't meant to be

Maybe we were way too high
To ever understand
Baby we were victims of all the foolish plans
We began to divide
But this ain't goodbye

This is just the way love goes
But where's the woman now to keep way the cold, oh no
This iain't goodbye
It's not where our story ends

But I know you cant be mine
Just like the way you've always been
As long as we got time,
This ain't good bye,
Oh no, this ain't good bye, oh oh, oh no this ain't goodbye
This ain't goodbye

You and I were friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only two who understood this place
And as far as we know
This ain't goodbye
Oh no this ain't goodbye
This ain't goodbye oh no this ain't goodbye
This ain't goodbye

It's just the way love goes
But where's that woman now, to keep away the cold, oh no,
This ain't goodbye
This isn't where the story ends
But I know you cant be mine
Like the way you've always been
This ain't goodbye

___

Very nice song.

Blog's first Malay song? ;D

2011-02-04T21:45:00.001+08:00

Bidadari - Mona Lyssa

Telah ku tuliskan lagu untukmu
Satu cerita tentang aku denganmu
Agar kau dapat memahami aku

Bukannya maksudku untuk mengganggumu
Kini ku resah diriku tanpa dirimu
Tak mungkin dapat ku lupakan kamu

Maafkan aku
Kerna meninggalkan kamu

Dan ku sedari
Kaulah satunya wahai bidadari
Kaulah cintaku kaulah nyawaku

Masihkah ada cinta
Walaupun hanya secebis di hati
Itu yang ku pinta (itu yang ku pinta)

Dan ku berjanji tuk terus setia
Hanya padamu ku curahkan cinta
Yang ada di hati

Dan ku sedari
Kaulah satunya wahai bidadari
Kaulah cintaku kaulah nyawaku
Ku sedari
Kau tiada pengganti wahai bidadari
Kaulah cintaku kaulah nyawaku

Tak dapat ku mengerti
Apa yang terjadi
Namunku kini pasti
Hanya kau yang di hati

Dan ku sedari
Kaulah satunya wahai bidadari
Kaulah cintaku kaulah nyawaku
Ku sedari
Kaulah satunya wahai bidadari
Kaulah cintaku kaulah nyawaku

P.s.: I blame you for making me embrace Haiqualism, due to this catchy tune. :p

Dear DeeDee,

2010-12-15T03:06:00.000+08:00

Good night my angel time to close you eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say

I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Where ever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Good night my angel now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay

And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark and deep
Inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight my angel now it's time to dream
And dream how wondeful your life will be
Someday your child will cry and if you sing this lullaby
Then in your heart there will always be a part of me

Someday we'll all be gone
But lullabies go on and on
They never die that's how you and I will be

Until You Won Me Over

2010-10-12T15:03:00.003+08:00

Why you gotta look so sad
Why'd you pick today
Don't talk yourself out of this
We're all afraid

They say it comes when you don't look
So I'll help you look away
You always try to make me smile
Let me do the same

Oh I was given the sunlight
A thousand chances to live a sweet life
Oh I cut all my loses
I thought I lost you

Until you won me over
Until you won me over... darling

I'll live of the hope I find
To talk to you all night
And we'll put all the stars together
And make them line

Running circles in the wind
As we're falling free
I'm never looking back this time
Just stay with me

Oh I was given the sunlight,
A thousand chances to live a sweet life
oh I had cut all my loses
I thought I lost you

Until you won me over
Until you won me over... darling

Oh I was given the sunlight,
A thousand chances to live a sweet life
Oh I had cut all my loses
I thought I lost you

Until you won me over
Until you won me over... darling

My grandfather's clock

2010-08-31T09:30:00.002+08:00

Did your mum ever make a book on nursery rhymes for you? A book filled with all the usual nursery rhymes: little red indians, incy wincy spider, jack and jill... and my grandfather's clock.

I remember that picture of the grandfather's clock she drew in her neat hand, and the words she wrote down beside it, on a small page I never desecrated with writings, so much can't be said of other pages without the illustrations, and words. Hehe.

So anyway, her song was short and precise, and I remember parts of it till now. Especially the chorus, but it was a sort of sad song, but one so little as Four could not, however, comprehend that feeling. Not yet.

But then, here's the song for ya, taken off a nursery song site:

My grandfather's clock
Was too large for the shelf,
So it stood ninety years on the floor;
It was taller by half
Than the old man himself,
Though it weighed not a pennyweight more.
It was bought on the morn
Of the day that he was born,
It was always his treasure and pride;

But it stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.
Ninety years without slumbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
His life seconds numbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
It stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.

In watching its pendulum
Swing to and fro,
Many hours had he spent while a boy;
And in childhood and manhood
The clock seemed to know,
And share both his grief and his joy.
And it struck twenty-four
When he entered at the door,
With a blooming and beautiful bride;

But it stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.
Ninety years without slumbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
His life seconds numbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
It stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.

Ninety years without slumbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
His life seconds numbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
It stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.

My grandfather said
That of those he could hire,
Not a servant so faithful he found;
For it wasted no time,
And had but one desire,
At the close of each week to be wound.
And it kept in its place,
Not a frown upon its face,
And its hand never hung by its side.

But it stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.
Ninety years without slumbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
His life seconds numbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
It stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.

It rang an alarm
In the dead of the night,
An alarm that for years had been dumb;
And we knew that his spirit
Was pluming his flight,
That his hour of departure had come.
Still the clock kept the time,
With a soft and muffled chime,
As we silently stood by his side.
But it stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.
Ninety years without slumbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
His life seconds numbering,
Tick, tock, tick, tock,
It stopped short
Never to go again,
When the old man died.

It was one of the longest songs in my nursery rhymes book, written right at the back. Oh how I love my mum. And my nursery rhymes.

Do you still remember singing along to white blind mice, and that old man who went knick knack on everything? I do. Thanks to my dearest mother <3

Ima futari ni God bless...

2010-04-15T15:12:00.001+08:00

I run past others with a parched heart.
Sorry, I can't do anything.
You won't even let me
Share our pain together.

To live on without tarnish,
I face your back and head out without looking back
on the lonely rail

I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in its darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
my way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...

This warming affection that reaches me,
It melts my reality and roams my heart.
I don't need a reason for wanting to meet you,
Just my overflowing feelings, Lovin' you

For now, let's paint a beautiful dream
And chase after
for your lonely heart

Stop it, it's not like you to lie.
Look at my eyes and let's talk about our future.
I am prepared,
Even if the future is bleak,
I might be able to change destiny if I become stronger.
But for my wish to come true,
Everything is God knows...

You are here, I am here.
Everyone else has disappeared.
While we paint the beauty of this fleeting dream,
We trace out the lines of our scars.

That's why I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in its darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
my way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...

try

2010-03-03T22:42:00.003+08:00

If I walk would you run?

If I stop would you come?

If I say you’re the one would you believe me?

If I ask you to stay would you show me the way?

Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me.
The world is catching up to you,
while your running away to chase your dream.
Its time for us to make a move, cause we are asking one another to change,
and maybe I'm not ready.

But I'm trying for your love.
I can hide up above,
I will try for your love,
We’ve been hiding enough.

If I sing you a song would you sing along?
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull.
If I give you my heart would you just play the part,
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful.
Am I catching up to you,
while your running away, to chase your dreams.
It's time for us to face the truth, cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe I'm not ready.

Tunes

2010-02-02T07:36:00.001+08:00

Five For Fighting - This Dance

"This is not our favorite song
but the night is moving right along
may I have your hand, may I have this dance.

I sense that you are amused,
but you just bought those brand new shoes.
It would such a shame not to give us the chance.

And oh my love there is only so many dances we can take across the night.

So while is just me and you
I thought I might say to you
You put the beautiful in life. "

Colbie Caillat - You Got Me

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though I try to hide - I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe - you got me
You got me.

We The Kings - Heaven Can Wait

"Here's a song for the nights,
I think too much and,
Here's a song when I imagine us together.
Here's a song for when we talk too much,
And I forget my words..."

30 Seconds To Mars - Kings and Queens

Into your eyes
Hopeless and taken
We stole our new lives
Through blood and pain
In defense of our dreams
In defense of our dreams

Kelly Clarkson - Sober

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me

___

Some might not be even new, but all of these are new entries into my itunes. Haha.

Enjoy listening.

You make me smile

2010-01-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

A song I'd like to dedicate to my dear sea lion.

Coz you make me smile. :)
________

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Crossroads

2010-01-12T11:55:00.002+08:00

I've got nothing on my mind: nothing to remember,
Nothing to forget. and I've got nothing to regret,
But I'm all tied up on the inside,
No one knows quite what I've got;
And I know that on the outside
What I used to be, I'm not anymore.

You know I've heard about people like me,
But I never made the connection.
They walk one road to set them free
And find they've gone the wrong direction.

But there's no need for turning back
`cause all roads lead to where I stand.
And I believe I'll walk them all
No matter what I may have planned.

Sha lalalala

2010-01-10T19:40:00.001+08:00

I miss you.
I miss your smile.
And I still shed a tear.
Every once in a while.
And even though it's different now.
You're still here somehow.
My heart won't let you go.
And I need you to know.
I miss you.

Nothing to do with me, but it's nice. Boleh lah.

Haha.

you

2009-12-21T23:20:00.005+08:00

I cannot accept coldness. Not from you. Not you.

Of all people, why you. I'm sorry. It's all my fault anyway. And I'm sorry, for what I did.

Sorry. But I think I have found a reason to thank you. Finally, I will cry. Because it hurts. And it cuts. Too deep.

But why you.

Shattered - Trading Yesterday

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide beyond believing
To know why hope dies
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown

And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we called home
Passing the graves of the unknown

As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
Love gone for so long

This day's ending is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold

And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on

But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over

There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer

And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on

But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over

There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer all
Yes his love will conquer all

Yesterday I died, tomorrows bleeding
Fall into your sunlight

(thx syu)

New Look~

2009-12-17T06:44:00.007+08:00

Haha. A new look in this 'ere place. I wish I could've gotten a new song for it too, but my bones are way too heavy for that. So let's see if I can find this old one somewhere. Somewhere.

Enjoy your day folks.

The Campfire Song Song

SpongeBob:

I call this one the Campfire Song song

lets gather round the campfire and sing our campfire song
our c-a-m-p-f-i-r-e s-o-n-g song
and if you dont think that we can sing it faster then youre wrong
but itll help if you just sing aloooooong

Patrick:

BumBumBum

SpongeBob:

c-a-m-p-f-i-r-e s-o-n-g song
c-a-m-p-f-i-r-e s-o-n-g song
and if you dont think that we can sing it faster then youre wrong
but itll help if you just sing along

c-a-m-p-f-i-r-e s-o-n-g song. Patrick!

Patrick:

Song!!! c-a-m-p-f-i-r-e ---

Spongebob:

SQUIDWARD!
*silence*

GOOD!!!
It'll help!
It'll heeeeeeelp!!!
If you just sing aloooooooong!
(BOOM! CRASH!)
OH YEAH!!!!

A new day, a new perspective

2009-12-15T11:30:00.004+08:00

I wanna go to the sea. Been ages since I last saw it(6 days). I wanna get out of here. Haha. So lets see where we can go.

Next.

And no nara, I won't tell you. I won't. I can't. Cause you don't know me yet, at least less than how little I know you. Maybe someday, yeah?

Hmm.

Laugh. :)

New Perspective by PANIC AT THE DISCO

I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me

Can we fast-forward til you go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up im getting out of here
(Can we fast-forward til you go down on me?)

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward til you go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up im getting out of here
Catch me up im getting out of here

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up im getting out of here

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'Cause seeing clear would be the bad idea
Now catch me up im getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here

Old songs and me. Haha

2009-12-13T13:36:00.002+08:00

Dan Sebenarnya - Yuna.

A friend's CRT, which I think suits my ears quite well. It tells of a story, of tears and of an end.

Although I don't see it yet. I sure hope there's still light, somewhere out there, for this friend.

Enjoy?

oh bulan
enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila
airmata membasahi pipi
dah lagu lagu di radio
seolah olah memerli aku
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
sebalik senyumanmu itu
kau juga
merindui aku
ku enggan
berpura-pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia

oo ku akui cemburu mula menular dlm diri
apabila kau bersama dengan lain
adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
sebalik senyumanmu itu
kau juga
merindui aku

Apabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah jatuh ke bumi
disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
sebalik senyumanmu itu
kau juga
merindui aku

So dance fucker dance.

2009-09-07T22:23:00.001+08:00

Pressured by exams. Gle love my results. Wanna kill my papers. Grr.

Imy. Hahah

songs I like, and a question

2009-08-25T08:24:00.002+08:00

1. Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls (Thx Lisa ;p)
2. Then - Brad Paisley
3. Forever and Always - Taylor Swift (Chen)
4. On Top of You - Enrique Iglesias
5. All Over You - The Spill Canvas (Makmin)
6. Here We Go Again - Demi Lovato
7. All Again For You - We The Kings
8. Jersey - Mayday Parade (Syu)
9. Dance Inside - All American Rejects
10. You're Gonna Go Far, Kid - The Offspring

...

So I have a question that needs an answer.

Why is it, that I still smile when I talk to her, when I hate her so much?

Is the hate just an illusion? Or am I still in love? In your own words please, people.

Heh.

Nvm.

Words from places

2009-06-13T08:30:00.007+08:00

A few songs I listened to lately. :)

Let's write a song that we can dance to,
Cause they all wanna listen,
Just to know how it sounds when,
I do that thing you know that I do,
When I find inspiration.

-Syun

'Cause I am barely breathing,
And I can't find the air,
Don't know who I'm kidding,
Imagining you care,
And I could stand here waiting,
A fool for another day,
I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price,
The price that I would pay.

-The singer

Slow it down,
Make it stop,
Or else my heart is going to pop,
'Cause it's too much,
Yeah, it's a lot,
To be something I'm not.

-The pillow

"Anyway they don’t know you like I do,
They’ll never know you,
Anyway they don’t know you like I do,
They’ll never know you."

-The dragon

ratti ratti sachi maine jaan gavayi hai
nach nach koylo pe raat bitayi hai
akhiyon ki neend maine phoonko se uda di
neele tare se maine ungli jalayi hai

-The... wth. Ahaha

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
And there’re so many things that I want you to know,
I won’t give up till it’s over,
If it takes you forever I want you to know.

-The mercury

There’s only one thing,
To do,
Three words,
For you.

-The fami

I'm a peasant by some standards,
But in your eyes I'm a queen,
You see potential in all my flaws,
And that's exactly what I need.

-The mimah

"Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write,
Kind of turn themselves into knives,
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction,
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear,
'Cause here we are, here we are."

-Wren

"If all our life is but a dream,
Fantastic posing greed,
Then we should feed our jewelery to the sea."

-The John

Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain,
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain,
You're the one thing that I'm missing here,
With you beside me I no longer fear.

-The largest cencorot alive (his words, not mine)

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle,
And I'm the pen.

-Me (Fish, Slimot, that name. What else? :P)

Haha. What a great end to a time wasting holiday. Haha. Miss you, girlfriend.

Devastation and Reform

2009-06-08T11:16:00.000+08:00

I like this song. Layan. Haha. Maximum volume. :P

Fear can drive stick
And it's taking me down this road
A road down which
I swore I'd never go
And here I sit
Thinking of God knows what
Afraid to admit
I might self-destruct

So lock the windows
And bolt the door
Cuz I've got enough problems
Without creating more

I feel like I was born
To devastation and reform
Destroying everything I loved
And the worst part is
I pull my heart out, reconstruct
And in the end it's nothing but
The shell of what I had when I first started

Usually I'll cause my own first hit
It seems to me to be slightly masochistic
But there'd be no story
Without all this descension
So I inflict the conflict
With the utmost of contemption

So lock the windows
And bolt the door
Cuz I've got enough problems

Without creating more

I feel like I was born
To devastation and reform
Destroying everything I loved
And the worst part is
I pull my heart out, reconstruct
And in the end it's nothing but
The shell of what I had when I first started

Thank you God
For giving me the insight
So I might make
These wrongs right
If and when
There ever is a next time
Cuz failure is a blessing in disguise

Pull my heart out, reconstruct
And in the end it's nothing but
The shell of what I had when I first started
The shell of what I had when I first started

I feel like I was born
To devastation and reform
Destroying everything I loved
And the worst part is
I pull my heart out, reconstruct
And in the end it's nothing but
The shell of what I had when I first started
(When I first started)
(The shell of what I had when I first started)

To be with you.

2009-06-06T08:08:00.001+08:00

I know some of you dislike Archie, but I still think this song is nice. Sigh.

To Be With You - David Archuleta

I've been alone so many nights now,
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually..

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way...
Oh...

Oh, to be with you...

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you, yeah.
You....

Till Kingdom Come

2009-05-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

Still my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

A song I once heard, on a sunny Saturday.

I need you.

2009-03-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need

Explore the cave that is my chest
A torch reveals there's nothing left
Your whispers echo off the walls
And you can hear my distant calls
The voice of who I used to be
Screaming out "someone, someone please
Please shine a light into the black
Wade through the depths and bring me back

I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need

When my hopes seem to dangle
Somewhere just beyond my reach
You say you've heard my prayers
And read my words there on the beach

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need